This is the season where the pull from retail is SO STRONG and they work SO HARD to make me feel like I’m missing out if I don’t have what they are selling!! There are more advertisements, flyers, mailed items, e-mailed items, Facebook posts, etc. . . . all centered on one thing . . . . . . WE NEED MORE STUFF!!!!!!! And this particular item is what we need!!!!! With all this coming at me it creates a certain stress in my heart!!!!!
And yet on the flip side . . . . . . .
I love to wander around Target . . . . alone . . . . with an empty shopping cart. It’s one of my GREATEST JOYS, and yet at the same time one of my husband’s GREATEST FEARS!! But this time of year is my favorite because all of the CHRISTmas promotions are out and all the special packaging and ???????? are out. I love to see what’s new and cute and fun. It doesn’t all make my shopping cart, but I do enjoy just wandering around and looking at it all.
This always starts out as a good trip, but it can soon turn sour as I see all the stuff I don’t have and yet maybe I should have it?!?!?! But I don’t have it, and I never knew it existed, but now for some strange reason I don’t just want it, I think I NEED IT!!!!!!!! And what started out as a fun trip around my favorite store has turned my heart into a downward spiral because not only can I not afford to buy all the stuff I’m seeing, but I really don’t want all this stuff in my house!!!!!!!!
I have been talking with Jesus a lot about CONTENTMENT these days!!! My heart gets all jumbled up as I look at what everyone else has around me! At the ministry opportunities others are getting! At the piles of gifts that others are giving and getting! At all the CHRISTmas parties and activities swirling around me! At the perfect children in all the CHRISTmas cards! At the beautiful decorations that are decked on everyone’s halls! I could go on and on and on at how my heart keeps comparing my world to everyone else!!! And what is so hard is that with each comparison I COME UP LACKING!!! Or so it seems to me!!
Comparison . . . . this is what kills me every time!!!! When I look at those AROUND ME . . . . side to side . . . . it’s NEVER A GOOD THING!!!!! All this breeds in my heart is DISCONTENTMENT!!!!!!!!
God doesn’t want us to be looking side to side!!! He longs for us to LOOK UP . . . . . TO HIM . . . . . our SWEET and PRECIOUS PRINCE OF PEACE!!!!!!!! That baby in the manger, the one we are celebrating this season . . . . if we keep our EYES ON HIM we will find all the peace and contentment that we long for!!!!!!!!!
I find myself over and over having to stop and correct my gaze!! I need to stop looking side to side, but to tip my head back and look up to the Lover of my Soul!!!!! It’s AMAZING!!! When I do that all of the stuff of the side drifts away and I am engulfed in His HOLY STARE and I can’t get my eyes off of the one that brings such a change of heart to me!!! I have to confess my jealousy, envy and wandering eyes off of Him . . . . . but He scoops me right back up in His arms for a wonderfully warm CHRISTmas cuddle and at that point NOTHING ELSE MATTERS!!!!!!!!!!! For in the arms of the Prince of Peace I am the most content I will ever be!!!!
So as I continue to walk through this season I will continue to allow God to strengthen my ability to keep my eyes from looking side to side, but instead keep them focused LOOKING UP to the cross or LOOKING DOWN to the baby in the manger!!!!